Anniversaries are weird. I don’t mean the marrying kind, I mean the cancer kind. “Cancerversaries” as some call them. One year ago, I heading to the hospital to do my lung biopsy, making a dinosaur out of pipe cleaners for the doctor, thinking everything was fine. The next thing I know, I’m overwhelmed with surgery and treatment and stages and everything else. It’s been a lot to go through this past year. The reason I say it is weird is that I feel I’ve grown and changed and adapted, but I have so much more to go through. I’m a little over a quarter ofRead More →

The chemo, or targeted therapy, that oncology put me on to help prevent any remaining cancer cells in my body from taking hold and growing is working (as evidenced by my last scan being clean). However, it not only has been working on the cancer cells, but it has been working hard on other parts of my body – in a not good way. One of the side effects of the medication that I’ve had is a lot of pain. Muscle pain, joint pain, just pain everywhere all the time. One spot would hurt, so I’d try to baby it for a while and thenRead More →

It’s been a while since my last update because aside from starting the targeted therapy, not much has been happening aside from trying to mitigate the side effects. It sounds like this is going to be the norm for the next two years. Unfortunately, I’ve had a pretty significant amount of joint and muscle pain associated with the targeted therapy and we are working to deal with that. I had an appointment with my thoracic surgeon team last week and aside from a few minor hiccups, I’m graduating! Speaking of which, did you know you can lose your “stride” in breathing? I get shortness ofRead More →

I started a post about my cancer treatment’s direction, but unfortunately, I need to write about something else instead. Ever since March when I first got back the first initial biopsy results with the tentative “carcinoma” results, I put up a strong wall. This wall blocked some of my emotions because of the fear that if I started to “feel” emotions a little, I would fall apart and not be able to deal with each step surrounding the cancer. Instead of emotions, I processed everything intellectually: doing research, studying, memorizing facts and information. While this was helpful as I navigated the medically complicated road, myRead More →

After what seemed like bad news after bad news, my appointment with the oncologist finally came back with good news! I have a specific biomarker in my tumor that will allow them to use a medication for targeted treatment to slow or prevent the growth of that specific marker (meaning the cancer and nothing else). Four pills twice a day for two years, but likely no chemo or radiation if it works! Please praise God for this opportunity, but continue to pray that the side effects will be minimal, that it won’t interact with my current important meds, and that I will overall tolerate it.Read More →

I said I’d write this post, but the truth is, I don’t want to. It feels like having to tell people about my diagnosis all over again. Hope existed in the fact that I was stage I. That a simple surgery could remove all the cancer. Because removing the cancer led to just a 5% chance of the cancer returning within 5 years. Before, everything sounded so good. And then the pathology report. It didn’t come back as was expected. At all. The cancer spread to the pleural lining. It has spread to four of the lymph nodes they’ve tested as well. They now typeRead More →

I’ve been listening to the song Fight Song by Rachel Platten on repeat a lot since my cancer diagnosis. I first heard the song years ago when a chronic pain friend shared a music video of it and I liked it then, but the words mean even more to me now. This is my fight songTake back my life songProve I’m alright songMy power’s turned onStarting right now, I’ll be strongI’ll play my fight songAnd I don’t really care if nobody else believes‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me Fight Song by Rachel Platten Tomorrow I head into surgery and I’mRead More →